Hello,
I was talking to the other part of the duo that know me better than my mother about a situation at work. I female at my job tried to bring me up on charges of harassment, even throwing one of the two people who will even talk to her under the bus to prove her point. But I was taught by the best, and I am still learning new things daily on how to navigate corporate life, so I was well covered. The documentation on her was overwhelming, but here is the problem, I have NOT and NEVER will be your beat around the bush female. If I have something to say, I SAY it, and I won't apologize for saying it. IT IS A JOB WITH CLEARLY DEFINED PERIMETERS. So why is that in capital letters, because this is one of two jobs that I have ever had where what is expected is spelled out and explained clearly. There is not one set of rules for one, and another set for two. EVERYONE adheres to the same rules. PERIOD. But I am abrupt, I admit that. I am straight to the point because I do not want you to put your interpretation on what I am requesting. I need things to be very clear. What does that have to do with being the perfect victim, its because I can't be victimized. Basically, even against the strongest attack, I still seem stronger than the attacker, so there must be some validity to the attack, right? Victim blaming, subtlety. It's not that I am the first one she has tried this on, I am just the one that didn't give in. The truth of the matter is my ego won't allow it. You push me, I push back. I have ALWAYS been the one that will walk away from a fight first, but if you block my path, I take you out, period. It am slow to anger, I forgive easily, until I can't anymore. And I don't go after you, I dismiss you. Once it's done, it's done. But this little quirk in my personality give others the illusion that I can't be a victim, not true. I just refused to be victimize. That pathetic whoa is me, passive aggressive persona doesn't fit me well. It's uncomfortable skin for me. But, unfortunately women, especially women of color, are taught to get your way you must play the victim. How many of you have not used this tactic to get what you want? If you say, not me, you're lying. We all have. I just chose not to, a long time ago. This means that I have had to prepare myself for the backlash that being assertive, black and female would bring me. This does not mean I am hard and relentless, my soul would not allow that. I am a freakin' bleeding heart most of the time. My children complain that I have a habit of collecting strays, kids, animals, etc. I have been there, where the only thing holding me together are my children and God. No one deserves to homeless, jobless, or ignored, but that doesn't make me a pushover. If I reach out my hand to help you, take it, I got you. But, understand if you bite that hand, you have lost my trust. Once trust is loss, I will never do anything intentional, but I might just sit back and watch it happen, like a good victim.
listening to: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Mt3D4H93hNs
G Soul. I really like his voice. Look him up, he sings in English, also.
not my gif, all props to who made, I am truly not that skilled.
